reward system

when I tear myself through the window

did I catch a piece of your sanity?

pacing up and down this maze

I lock down my heart

To wait for the day

when you can clean the darkest frustration

scrubbing the bruises from my veins

like a batting cage they take their turn

I can see colors burning through the distance

breath in and out

they inhale every secret left inside my mind

a million words are exhaled

but I can’t translate a blind man’s burden

run through this glass covered maze

skin broken to bone

men watch in uniform

they shake the locks with cruelty

shut my eyes with polaroids under every scar

flash every emotion away

their hands shake at they keys

will they unlock the doors?

men run into secret cars

bury frustration at my knees

turn on the only channel tuned to your heart

can’t stay alive kicking through these doors

divide every opportunity into equal parts

look at all the directions

clean up my memories

watch the ships crash into the bridge of desire

run through the streets with a color burning deep in my eyes

catch the reflection lost in secrecy

are you the pain I can’t live without?

are you the pain i’ve nurtured since my youth?

deep into the illusion of yesterday

men run into secret cars

hoping for a way out of this town

when the crowds beat us up from the inside

when the people start to run into the sky

do they look at my past mistakes?

look at the crowds like a prisoner in the dark

grip my youth until we don’t age

these strings break with callous mistakes

these walls fall apart with every ounce of hope

when we speak again

when we change our minds