“engaged to the only part of me”

black & stopped
I hear this face drowning me from the inside
I had a sense of freedom
trapped against the veil
all the voices reaching from the sand
tangled with this memory
can’t get away
can’t disguise my thoughts
I am inept to move past this regret
all the pieces lay against the floor
are you the only one left inside my mind?
can’t redefine it all
don’t we doubt falling through September
a piece of desire
I hurt myself against the mirror
all the days trapped behind silver screens
put apart a piece of all the rest to control my sense of urgency
If you went away to drive past this town
down to pack up my bags
does freedom every last?
stare against the screen
words floating against the sky
you inspire my every existence
to dissolve this ride of passage
to go on this time
all bridges we broke
to repeat the balance
to trap the desire
I’m losing this sound
a game I can’t play
to re-describe… to put it all away
numb my voice of all accusations
run through your town
I hear it all go away
words can’t describe my fate
to pick through the colors
to desaturate the forgiveness
save up my days to where we belonged
only you can make it true
engage my sense
stumble up & down to remember how we met
to get away from where we evolved
don’t tell me where I don’t belong
all the time burning in my head
the only way I can express myself
to dive into the balcony
to push apart every desire
to withstand every day defined
madness broken like a lost forecast
cars drive past every feeling inspired with freedom
stand on top of the buildings where we once belonged
still we smile like strangers
engaged to the only part of me
did you leave me in this place until now?

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“Paint the Photographs on the Wall”

I’m staring through the window one more time
all the colors press against my heart
Every blue and white shapes the shadows away
all the days gone by
watch the ice strain through the distance
Children push their nets through the streets
Like a circus ring we never have to pretend
The games we used to play
run to whisper through the light
Light up the days
Christmas edges close in the air
when we used to dream in the dark
spark the light against the mismatched distance
everyday when we used to pray differently
if I could hold a difference through your eyes
Shake my lost understanding
I still see the outline against your back
all the bridges we used to break
I watch you paint the photographs on the wall
All the words breaking the shadows away
Colors bleed from you hand
Every part of imagination you persuade
When you used to remind me of the past
I never had to shut my mouth
Now I know the future is here to stay
The children don’t have to hide their words deep inside
If we could start this all over again
Suspend this time forever in our hearts
You make me wonder why
You make me wonder why
Everything that we could ever be
You just make me stronger
Everything that is possible

Like a ghost we walk the streets
I know things are better this time
Burn through the focus and stare against the light
Jump against the air
Doesn’t it feel right this way?
Doesn’t it feel right this way?
Shake the shadows into thin air
If I could feel again
Watch the horses cross the sky
Do they have secrets left to keep?
You never lied to me
I feel so much stronger in this place
I feel so much better
Forget when their words broke the glass against your heart
I know you make my dreams come

“Cathedral Bells”

I watch the ballerinas in the dark
every spoken movement counter-played
we can all find ourselves free again
inside and out mirrors study the emotional line
to run across imagination to re-process every critical point
we won’t ever stop running through daydreams
if we stop to questions why
if we stop to outline the detail on their back
will we ever understand which way we tick?
when you prescribe the distance I know the battleground too well
wake up another day to break this imagination across the silver screen
if you were next to me
If I couldn’t take a breath
I wouldn’t doubt redefinition
a vital clue going through your head
each slip, each belief to run through the sky
if I could speak
if I could speak to break the colors of silence
if I could speak like cathedral bells
if I could speak like the ghosts inside my head
to walk against the falling rain
if love didn’t fall apart inside my head
I see the shadows drop behind the heartache
reemphasize the social clues I am running so far behind
to cross out my window another day
tonight the church bells ring a different tune
to watch the cathedral walls one more day
to watch the smoke drop the critical line
to kneel before kingdom come every eye closed behind secrets reaching out for me
whisper past separation
tonight the church bells ring a different sound but only with you

“Stare Through Medical Lies”

stare through medical lies

days lost

when they use our existence

remember when they broke down the bridges in San Francisco

take back the words that define the solider’s last command

I’m the one hurting to imagine it fall apart before your eyes

save every color fallen from your eyes

words burning through my head

pushing in all directions they shock every substantial lie burning across your skin

years leaving this town

years to prove my faith

shape every detail before we say farewell

before when they were so much better

when children watch ghosts locked away behind words on film

walk through the staircase and lie across the pages of every book in detail

lights burn away every chemical misunderstood

imagination locked behind transparent skies

when sickness falls to the ground

hide away in your own security

places too numb to feel

conversations buried away

pick away at this disguise

pick through the amnesia

colors driven to the shoreline

we watch all the ships sail towards this lighthouse

a million letters to my best friend

I can’t wake you now

when we can’t feel tomorrow

“I hear tomorrow in your eyes”

I hear tomorrow in your eyes

past this point of view

to rule the existence

We watch children march across these wires

lost in the day behind this window

sustain this look past many years

we start to connect the skies

hold on to me

hold on to me

I watch the voices cross the line

don’t abandon this love

hold this string against your heart

pin every emotion towards the sky

we hold onto every day

don’t lose these years

will time break through the line across photographic skies

I watch the colors in the distance

all the shapes running against my mind

I take the blame for your mistakes

to shelter the fuel against the window

to break a million pieces of glass through my heart…

to break a million stars to remember how…

I see the sun shine behind tomorrow

I start to remember the lost days between hospital wards

turn the page through time and lift regret away

when can we run skyscrapers towards the sun?

run through tomorrow

don’t let go

don’t let go

don’t abandon this love

watch a million spirits cross the skies

I watched you fall apart behind every second

whisper this world away

press the questions like damage

was I wrong to make things right?

all this time burning away

gauge the glimpse of this light

the pressure is too thick to control

break this silence apart

losing every color in the dark

you can’t break these balloons around my heart

to feel this emotion too deep

to feel this emotion like a chemical control

start all the days over in my mind

mistakes like dancers in the dark

if the light doesn’t shine today

let it burn me apart tomorrow

am I always wrong to choose different directions to get us apart?

one day they will rise to Heaven

like concealer to hide the black and blue away

like concealer to turn this world apart

shake this feeling to the ground

laugh again tomorrow

soldiers hear tomorrow

it hits them to the ground

in observation we pray for a new day of forgiveness

if yesterday doesn’t tell a story

someday we will march across the skies

everyday to define my faith

if time doesn’t answer me past the gates to prescribe the adoration

I can’t numb away the days lost

spin around this maze like a million pieces of doubt falling from my eyes

reflect the mirrors to break through the distance

a million voices gaining ground through the distance

to perfect the colors against the wall

I have seen the shadows spin through your heart

close their eyes to remember

television screens paint a true glimpse of tomorrow

pray for the days to absolve these sins locked in my heart

watch a million spirits cross the skies

“The Lost Parade”

all the colors turn into red behind the street

I hear a million sirens reach out for me

pinned in silence they make that choice

process emotions like broken skin

stare across the needle to break the balloons apart

my veins have turned behind every blue and black

reach for the photographs behind every wall

bright as a daydream

bright as the morning sun

fall through the water to swim the pain away

every depth of broken glass in your hands

memories falling towards the ground

an ash of declaration

children run across the sky to the lost parade

remember when we used to color the distance?

they pull splinters through their hair

machines start to walk through the sand

men march with magazines pinned through their eyes

every word pressed through the skin