“engaged to the only part of me”

black & stopped
I hear this face drowning me from the inside
I had a sense of freedom
trapped against the veil
all the voices reaching from the sand
tangled with this memory
can’t get away
can’t disguise my thoughts
I am inept to move past this regret
all the pieces lay against the floor
are you the only one left inside my mind?
can’t redefine it all
don’t we doubt falling through September
a piece of desire
I hurt myself against the mirror
all the days trapped behind silver screens
put apart a piece of all the rest to control my sense of urgency
If you went away to drive past this town
down to pack up my bags
does freedom every last?
stare against the screen
words floating against the sky
you inspire my every existence
to dissolve this ride of passage
to go on this time
all bridges we broke
to repeat the balance
to trap the desire
I’m losing this sound
a game I can’t play
to re-describe… to put it all away
numb my voice of all accusations
run through your town
I hear it all go away
words can’t describe my fate
to pick through the colors
to desaturate the forgiveness
save up my days to where we belonged
only you can make it true
engage my sense
stumble up & down to remember how we met
to get away from where we evolved
don’t tell me where I don’t belong
all the time burning in my head
the only way I can express myself
to dive into the balcony
to push apart every desire
to withstand every day defined
madness broken like a lost forecast
cars drive past every feeling inspired with freedom
stand on top of the buildings where we once belonged
still we smile like strangers
engaged to the only part of me
did you leave me in this place until now?

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“Paint the Photographs on the Wall”

I’m staring through the window one more time
all the colors press against my heart
Every blue and white shapes the shadows away
all the days gone by
watch the ice strain through the distance
Children push their nets through the streets
Like a circus ring we never have to pretend
The games we used to play
run to whisper through the light
Light up the days
Christmas edges close in the air
when we used to dream in the dark
spark the light against the mismatched distance
everyday when we used to pray differently
if I could hold a difference through your eyes
Shake my lost understanding
I still see the outline against your back
all the bridges we used to break
I watch you paint the photographs on the wall
All the words breaking the shadows away
Colors bleed from you hand
Every part of imagination you persuade
When you used to remind me of the past
I never had to shut my mouth
Now I know the future is here to stay
The children don’t have to hide their words deep inside
If we could start this all over again
Suspend this time forever in our hearts
You make me wonder why
You make me wonder why
Everything that we could ever be
You just make me stronger
Everything that is possible

Like a ghost we walk the streets
I know things are better this time
Burn through the focus and stare against the light
Jump against the air
Doesn’t it feel right this way?
Doesn’t it feel right this way?
Shake the shadows into thin air
If I could feel again
Watch the horses cross the sky
Do they have secrets left to keep?
You never lied to me
I feel so much stronger in this place
I feel so much better
Forget when their words broke the glass against your heart
I know you make my dreams come

“Stare Through Medical Lies”

stare through medical lies

days lost

when they use our existence

remember when they broke down the bridges in San Francisco

take back the words that define the solider’s last command

I’m the one hurting to imagine it fall apart before your eyes

save every color fallen from your eyes

words burning through my head

pushing in all directions they shock every substantial lie burning across your skin

years leaving this town

years to prove my faith

shape every detail before we say farewell

before when they were so much better

when children watch ghosts locked away behind words on film

walk through the staircase and lie across the pages of every book in detail

lights burn away every chemical misunderstood

imagination locked behind transparent skies

when sickness falls to the ground

hide away in your own security

places too numb to feel

conversations buried away

pick away at this disguise

pick through the amnesia

colors driven to the shoreline

we watch all the ships sail towards this lighthouse

a million letters to my best friend

I can’t wake you now

when we can’t feel tomorrow

“enumerate cathedral walls”

i’m at the stoplight trying to remember it all…

before we crash against tomorrow…

Fuel up my insides with disbelief

I hear all the photographs talking about the lost collapse

a million sounds lodging through my brain

fall through the stairs to skin my eyes of sin

One more pinprick to control obscurity like design

shuffling past all the days written in your head

try to imagine a future without recourse

I see the aspiration written across the depth of instability

To conquer a million mountains for you

to withstand the longevity sparkle through your eyes

watch us roll down the hill to burn instinct beyond infinity

walk through time to wash away every ounce of pain

step across monuments with a million lost gifts inside

drive to stand still

enumerate cathedral walls

we watch them describe a piece of faith to amplify every ounce of self control

 

streetcars chase the sky

step through the broken staircase

faceless values turned around

locked within a trance

colors brittle to the touch

fall through separation

stop apart

don’t wake the dead this time

chemicals spilling from your eyes

lock & turn it apart

like each day chosen before us

men fall from the sky

a paralyzed reaction driven through battle

loose this memory deep in your veins

this situation is endless

houses burning on empty streets

children run towards open bridges when we find a way out

when we paint it in gold

when we write it in silver

when we focus on all the details

situations endless

a feeling left to control

a justification split apart

voices half memorized

a future locked behind the past

a future written in your disguise

pictures adhered between their eyes

transfixed with your true control

yesterday they broke all the walls down inside

alone with degradation

stand behind the rain

try to face to light

every distant past buried behind segregation

capture faces like flags in the dark

this house runs across a million dreams

can’t focus on every detail

stand to listen to every hour

capture my sanity before it dissipates

grow past my youth

stand behind the light

every call hitting me closer

years behind an electric glare

fuel burns through my hands

spark a guide to instinct

every hour inside your head

crush the ghost where none of us belong

run past the traffic lights

wish apart every secret we are yearning for

confusion spins through your spine

i’ve seen you crush your eyes with instability

I saw you break the glass with your eyes

when we start to hesitate I can’t crawl back to the empty spaces

every distant shore that shakes the hours away

do we burn away the time

count every step through the wall

when we kept a million days awake

cross the streetcar

look away & try to believe i’ve seen you shut it apart

i’ve seen you shut it down

break apart every inscription when they guide us further away

a face in the distance where we try to believe

cross the hours away

I imagine their minds in black & white

to redesign every impact to a thoughtless disguise

chase the scarecrow to pin his wings

I felt winter drop across your eyes

when we turn the pages and try to forget

is it everything I try to feel at once?

I start to stare across faces lost against the window

shake their hands over and over to remember it all

never try to realize we pretend too far

never try to realize it is all a disguise

I am shopping through yesterday trying to remember my name

stand like a ghost for days

burning time like angels

look across a million reflections but I can only see you

playing chessmen to win it all

but I lose my game for you

I lose my game for you

what words can I say

every hallow reaction numbed by time

impossible dreams I can’t realize

lose my doubts  from this crime scene

paint a million faces to color their days away

submerge all the thoughts holding me from falling

every discovery in the dark

turn to control this vice

fading against time every color I can’t feel

sickness slipping through my skin

every creation lost in my mind

build a million sandcastles to withstand my days

unlock a million puzzles to lose illusion one more time

turn against my true instinct

an Alter for every sin

a fortune controlled by filters in a cage

redesign the loss to win it all

reevaluate every impact gone wrong

hear a million voices through this room

every amplification to escape

overcompensate this hidden values

I saw you laughing in the dark

every substance I can’t feel

try to categorize every emotion and paint it through the wall

lock away every insecurity

a million keys spinning through your head

to break the lock against my heart

they are lost in the field to hunt their eyes

we look inside for doubts

witness every reaction to distinguish each crime

chase the scarecrow to pin his wings